Why It So Happens?

Why it so happens?

whenever I tried to teach

I myself was taught, 

whenever I improved my words 

it became more worst,

whenever I drank 

I suffered with more thirst.

Why it so happens?

whenever I lighted candle

the world appeared

more and more dark,

whenever I tried simple

it became more and more hard.

Why it so happens?

whenever I tried my best

I got nothing more then just defeat,

Whenever I hoped to get success

I received only failure

I don't know why it so happens.

Why it so happens?

whenever I have decided

the crater became more wider,

whenever reached higher and higher

the steps became more shorter and shorter.

Whenever to achieve goal

approached nearer and nearer,

I found it more further and further,

I don't know why it so happens?

Believing on the fact

that without any rest

I may conquer the set

I am rushing towards endless space

and searching the appropriate place for me.

But I don't know

 why it  so happens?

I am still searching

a pearl in the ocean

who may tell me

 why it so happens...

Those Memories...

Early winter was that,

warm,calm her hand was in my palm,

the clock was running

with the pace my heart was beating.

The heavenly smile of my beloved,

creates the reason to be loved,

the passion i feel

the emotion i feel,

the sensation of her touch,

her soul urged me to dwell.

The early petal and the mature bud,

make me dissolve in her fragrance,

whenever i remember

 those silvery moments,

Those memorable occasions,

those unforgettable relations,

i feel my body floating

in the ocean of those passion,

As she is away from me now

but shining and twinkling in my bosom,

the ignition in me she cause some,

in my heart and that force me

to live more and more,

and more leaving me

on this earth to

die and die and die

but still she belongs to me...

Confession Of Heart

Some times I wander

with no direction

I just can see

the falling tears in my eyes

all the confusion,

all the deception in life.

I was still burning,

I was still freezing,

I was as low as man can be

without the passion,

without the affection

all the sensation

I could see was

just confession for me,

And then I swept

all the miseries

from my eyes

and then I tried

to feel the smile

the golden sunshine

Which the nature granted nature

to rebuild the future

and my lonely heart

accepted all this

  after a long departure.